When Is Too Much?

All the senses were firing. All the feelings were there. All the signs were right. There are times that I just know something good is going to happen on the golf course. Monterey, was one of these moments. I went fully knowing that I was going to walk away with the prize...and I did, only it wasn't the prize I was expecting.

We've all had those times when what we planned in our head, and our heart, to happen didn't work out that exact way. My reaction was frustration as I left the course wondering how I was going to win by playing "this way!"

My first reaction was to buy a bag a cookies and drown my sorrow in sugar. Ya well sugar has more power over me. I ate two cookies and was done. I couldn't even bindge right!

Now started the barrage of questions. Why did this happen? What did I do wrong? Will I ever really make it? Wha wha wha...call the whambulance. But these experiences lead to defining moments and decisions that usually allow the breakthrough you thought was going to happen.

Golf is a funny game at best, but I love it. We work towards perfection knowing we will never be able to reach that mark but wake daily knowing we must try. These are golfers! A strange breed, eh? And I've discovered to play professional golf is not like playing casual golf...really? I needed to be reminded of this? Obviously I did.

I have been focused so much on my swing that I had forgotten to take my game to the playing field. I was lost out there mentally. In fact I would suggest that I was so far off my personality that I was attempting to be a created being I had never met before...or at least only on occassion.

Finding you, in the midst of pressure is vitally important to playing this game. It creates a stable ground to walk on when everything around you is swirling.

Ok, enough of the gibber jabber! What came from this?

The next day I didn't have to recover from sugar overload...I've got that going for me, and I was refueled to attack my practice times with the renewed focus on who I am. This creates focus and determination that I had misplaced.

Next on the schedule is the Northern California Senior PGA Championship. Don't wish me luck, keep me focused!
Byron